Monday, June 29, 2015

June 29, 2015

Well we are actually not going home tomorrow. Last night Tyson only took four or five 45 minute naps all night long, his blood pressure and heart rate are still too high while he is storming and he has a few inflammatory markers that are slightly elevated which the Infectious Disease doctors are slightly concerned about. The doctors want to try to adjust his medication to try to help with the storming along with running some additional test to make sure that he isn't becoming resistant to the antibiotic that he has been given or something is up with his liver. So long story short we are here indefinitely still.

Its a little disappointing to be close to leaving and then being pulled back but honestly I wasn't feeling very comfortable leaving anyway because his testing results are not ideal and his storming is pretty scary and that would just compound it being at home on our own handling all of his different meds and needs all day long on our own.

His doctors consulted with the cardiologists and are debating about putting him on a beta blocker instead of the current storming medication that he is on. The Rehab Doctors are also debating mixing it up as well. Tomorrow they will probably coordinate together and decide which mix will hopefully work better for him.

Tonight I almost had him to sleep this evening and then the doctors ordered an EEG so that was pretty irritating but we had it done and he is asleep now which is good and we are hoping he does better tonight

Today we also had a lot of visitors two sets of Tyson's Great Grandparents came to visit and see him as well as some close family friends from Murrieta. It was so nice to see everyone and hear of their love and support for us. I love that Tyson will be able to get to know most of his Great Grandparents, they all love and adore him so much!

Sunday, June 28, 2015

June 28, 2015

All night Mommy and Daddy stayed with Tyson through the night. He actually started sleeping better and had two different chunks of 3 hours of sleep at a time! Hopefully that will continue to get better especially as well go home and he doesn't have all of the extra noise, light and nurses bugging him constantly.

Tyson's liver test came back a little bit high. The doctors are going to talk to the neurologists about possibly lowering his seizure med because they think that is the reason it is a little bit elevated. It is nothing to be concerned at or worried about at this point but they will continue to monitor him to make sure it doesn't get worse.

We were given a service dog prescription today! I think the people who are most excited is Tyson and Aunt Judy! She is currently on the hunt for the best fit for our little man. I don't know how soon we will get one but I defiantly think a dog will be a great thing for him and help him heal and have a companion.

We are currently planning on heading back to Idaho on Tuesday morning. There is a lot of things that need to fall into place first and things to organize but hopefully we will get that all taken care of on Monday so that we can leave Tuesday Morning.

Earlier in the afternoon Mommy, Daddy and Tyson all took a walk around our floor of the hospital. If anyone knew Tyson before all of this happened you know that he just loves to be up and moving constantly. Sometimes walking around helps him to calm down a little bit and relaxes him. As we were walking there was someone playing the piano and they were playing "The Prayer" and I have heard it many times before but this time it really touched me as I was holding my little guy and thinking about everything we have been through recently. I felt like it was just for me in that moment, even though the whole hospital could hear the wonderful performance. I am so grateful for tender mercies and the chance that I have to notice them every single day.


The Prayer by Celine Dion & Andrea Bocelli 


#Tystrong 


Time for Cuddles!! 


We tried to buy some high tops online but I ordered them way too big! Lucky we found some niki high tops that fit perfectly at Ross 


Mommy kisses are the best! 


This is one of the best positions to have him in to help him relax while he is storming. He usually falls asleep in it. 


Aunt Judy helped Ty sit in his car seat a few days ago 


He is a champ! 

June 27, 2015

This morning I was able to sleep in while my Mom went and stayed with Tyson. It was nice to be able to relax and sleep a little bit more then I had been earlier in the week. It is always hard being away from him but I know that I also need breaks and sleep so that I can be fully present for him.

Around noon Tyson, Grandma Kim and I went down to the MRI recovery room to have his new PICC placed while is under sedation. The first one they put in they didn't have to sedate him at all because he was so out of it. I was able to carry him down instead of him riding in the crib. I know that he hates going over bumps on the ground in carts and it aggravates him doing it in the crib as well. The sedation team let me hold him until he was sedated and then asked us to leave. It is always heart wrenching to leave him to have procedures done. I don't like being with him but I also don't handle watching what they do either.

We talked to the doctors and decided that Tyson would probably be ready to go home either Monday or Tuesday. His storming is getting better and his heart rate still gets high but not as high as it used to. We will continue to manage it at home and if he needs extra care we will defiantly be taking him in. But we are excited to be able to take him home soon and assume some what of normalcy.

During the care conference the day before we were interested in having his liver levels checked as well as having his eyes checked. After his doctors consulted with the ophthalmologist they recommended that we do an outpatient visit to have that done because they can't do very much testing bedside. They also are running tests to check his liver and other levels in his body so that they can be pretty confident that they are not missing anything else.

Aunt Judy left to go back to Sacramento today. It was so great to have her here and we are very sad to see her leave. But we can't wait to see her again and Ty defiantly loves his Aunt Judy!

Overall today he did better then the previous days. He is always making slow and steady improvements like he is tracking a little bit more with his eyes. He is also moving his legs more and being awake and not storming. These are all great things and we are excited to be able to work with him going forward to see what he can redevelop.

Tyson slept like this when he was a newborn, I think it is so adorable! 


Usually when he is storming he tries to arch his back and head


My two favorite boys! 


Daddy had to get all geared up to change Tyson's diaper


Captain Adorable sitting in his new rocker 


Mommy and Tyson just chilling! 


Grandma Kim and Tyson holding hands 


Mommy and Daddy playing with our Ty Man! 
(This is one of my favorite pictures!)

Saturday, June 27, 2015

June 26, 2015

The last few days have been very crazy. On Wednesday Tyson continued to have the episodes where he would be stiff and clenched and unconsolable. We were mostly giving him Ativan which just nocked him out very quickly but after the doctors rounded in the morning they wanted to be able to distinguish and see if the episodes were a storm or seizure or something else. We started treating with a drug called Cloidine which is usually used as an ADD med. I took between 30 minutes and 1 1/2 hours for him to calm down from these episodes. We didn't know of any way to hold him or position him to help so he played there with his heart rate around 200 bpm and a super high blood pressure.

This made me very uncomfortable and irritated to watch. His doctors decided that they wanted to do a dose of steroids to help with strider that was going on in his throat (when the air way gets inflamed form intubation and it makes a weird noise). He was intubated the day before for the MRI. I had a gut feeling that I shouldn't have let them sedate him any more for the MRI but I didn't follow through with that feeling and now I regret it. I am just glad it didn't cause more serious complications. Its hard sometimes between what I feel is right for him and what the doctors and professionals are telling me what is right for him. 

So after we had treated him with the steroids he was having fit for about two hours. We finally decided to give him the Ativan again because he was just not calming down. I was so stressed and angry at this point that his doctors let it go on for so long I just about exploded at them. Latter a different doctor told me she was confused as to why the other doctor used the steroid as treatment for the high heart rate and blood pressure because that takes several hours to work and it will only help with the breathing component. 

Regardless of all of that a minute before we gave him the Ativan he was so exhausted physically that he just knocked himself out and went to sleep. He looked so tired, scared and stressed that I had to leave at that point that I knew he was fine. Aunt Judy stayed with him and I went and drove around Salt Lake for a few hours. I talked to both of Tyson's Grandmas and I had my first angry at God moment during this whole journey. It is so hard to watch him go through this and I know that eventually I might see the reason why we needed to go through this but right now it is very difficult to do so. 

Latter that night he had a few other fits but they were able to get those under control faster. On Friday we learned that the nurse we had the day before either miss read or made up the virus that we originally thought he had in the hospital. It was no where on the reports and the doctors and nurses could not find it on Friday. That also kind of threw me over the edge. I know it wasn't life threatening but if they make some other mistake it could be. 

Around 9 or 10 AM on Thursday Tyson was having another fit and we gave him some more medicine. About 10 minutes after they gave it to him the Occupational Therapist came in and showed Judy and me how to hold in him a few different positions to help him feel comforted, safe and secure. It was things like bringing his knees up and holding his chest to relax his muscles. There were a few other things but those were the main points. Almost immediately after she did it he relaxed into me and was able to calm down. we are still trying to master the techniques that she showed us and also listen to Tyson to see what he likes and what he doesn't. It changes with almost every episode but I think we are getting better at reading his signals. 

Everyone including myself wanted to know if these episodes were seizures or something else so around 11 or 12 we were able to get an EEG on him and start recording his brain activity. At that same time the PICC team came in and said that after looking at the x-ray that was taken the day before to look at his lungs (for the virus he never had) they were able to see a kink in his line up around his arm pit. They had to take the dressing off and mess with it and then redress the area. With both of those things going on at once and with his head getting so hot and overheated with the EEG on he went into the worst fit I have every seen. We called back the occupational therapist and had her help us gain but it took a long time and some extra meds to calm him own. We are starting to learn that he needs very low stimulation and contact. It is so hard for him to regulate his responses and we are still working on the med level of what will help him manage this. 

During one of the afternoon doses Tyson was having with the EEG on I was having a hard time by myself calming him down and my Aunt Joy showed up to visit and was able to help me calm him down and get him to relax with help from the medicine. 

Wednesday we started with a does of 15 for the Cloidine and we have added more to his scheduled doses every days since. He can also have smaller doses in-between if he needs it. Which he has needed it every single time so far. We are hoping that we will get it to a level that will maintain him for the 6 hours. I hate putting so many drugs in him but I also hate seeing his heart rate and blood pressure so high all the time. 

Latter that afternoon the neurologists ruled out seizures completely and we took the EEG off. Once it was off Tyson was so much happier and relaxed which was great. Everyone decided at that point the problem was a late expression of the Storming. Usually these show up a lot quicker after a tramatic brain injury but for some reason with Tyson it is different. They expect this to take a few weeks to work through his system and then they should get further and further between and then go away completely. Pretty much what is happening is that his hypothalamus has been damaged causing his brain to send a flight or flight response to his whole body without any control of turning it off. Thus causing the physical reaction that it does. It could potentially cause issues with his hormones in the future but we won't know until we get there.

We also had an x-ray done on Tuesday that showed that his PICC line that they were trying to unclot was actually kinked up by his heart. By the time they were able to unkink it the line was also cloted even with trying again to fix it. That evening we pulled it and decided to get him a new one in the next day or two for his antibiotics.

That evening we also raised the level of his scheduled Cloidine. His storms pretty much were happening any time he was awake and we would hold and comfort him along with giving him medication to help him calm down. It was very scary to have his heart rate so high along with his blood pressure.

On Thursday he continued to do the storming and we decided that we wanted to put together a care conference to help organize all of the doctors and come up with a direct plan of what needs to be done to help him. That was being put together by the Social Worker for Friday around 2 PM. The rest of the day went on with storming off and on and the doctors monitored him closely again. Grandma Kim also came back up to stay with us and it was so great to have her back to help us.

That night I also went and had a massage done at Massage Envy. Aunt Judy stayed with Tyson while I was gone. It was so nice to have a break and do something to help me relax. The massage therapist that I happened to have has done a little bit of energy training and she did some on me that really helped as well.

Through out these past few days I have not been very satisfied about the answers the doctors are giving me about how to go forward with helping him to remake the connections in his brain. All they recommend is Physical, Occupational and Speech therapy. We of course will be very aggressive with that but I feel like there is something more. We are starting to look into and talk to massage therapist, acupuncturists and alternative medicine doctors. Of course they will be heavily interviewed before we pursue that path but I am just feeling like something in that area is going to help him more then the doctors are here. I believe that modern medicine is great and has saved Tyson's life but there is more out there that we can do.

On Friday Tyson continued to have the episodes but he was obviously more aware and awake then he has been in four weeks. He is also getting a lot better at using his binki and sucking which is also great. His tone (the stiffness due to brain injury) is also getting so much better which is fabulous. We will be doing a lot of physical and occupational therapy to help hime in those areas but it is getting better so that is fabulous. Daddy also came down from Idaho again today so it was so nice to have him back with us.

During our care conference I pretty much ran the meeting and asked about 4 pages of questions. We had a lot of different questions answered and it was so nice to have the 10 or 15 different professionals together in the same place to ask questions about Tyson's case. We also decided to add melatonin to his regiment of medicine because he has had a hard time sleeping recently with all of this storming going on. His does of his scheduled Clodidine also went up again because he was tolerating his current dose and it wasn't dropping his blood pressure too low. But they still wanted to get his episodes more managed.

One of the questions that also came up at the conference is if his eyes needed to be checked or if they thought that they had been damaged from the meningitis. The doctors decided that they would talk to the eye doctors and see what they recommended. This hospital has been great at always having different specialists ready and here when we need them.

In the evening My cousin Ryan and his wife came and visited us and brought us some yummy drinks from Sonic. They also brought their cute baby who is two weeks younger then Tyson. Tyson is now in 18 month clothes and in size 4 diapers to give you a little hint of how big he is. Their baby is about the normal size of a 7 month old and it was so funny to see them next to each other because Tyson was about twice as big as their little baby. It was very fun to visit with them.

That night Daddy and Aunt Judy stayed with Tyson and were able to take turns sleeping which was really great to hear.

I am sorry it has taken me so long to update everyone this week. I know so many people love us and are concerned about our baby. I have been holding him and helping him a lot more then I have been in the past so it has been way more emotionally and physically draining then the previous weeks. He is doing better slowly we are happy to see his progress. Hopefully these storms will only last a few weeks and then we can continue on our progress of healing.


Wednesday, June 24, 2015

June 24, 2015

To say the least today was very emotional, frustrating and madening. I will explain more tomorrow. The doctors are still trying to figure out what these episodes are and how best to treat them. Tyson also came down with a new virus today so he is also fighting that now. His PICC line is no longer usable. They have tried for two days to fix it with no luck so they will have to put a new one in tomorrow. Please send prayers to us and ask that Tysons doctors can figure out how to help and treat him and that i can feel the insperation to know what is right for our sweet little man. Thank you!

By the way he is stable right now and sleeping a lot. I am exhausted so I'm going to try to sleep and update everyone with the details tomorrow.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

June 23, 2015

Today was a very long day, it started around 5 AM with a call about a storming episode not being able to be controlled after about an hour and a half of trying to with drugs. Cameron also left to go back to Idaho for school this week. We are always running a fine balance of him needing and wanting to be with us and wanting him to finish the semester so that he can do the paramedic program next year. So far it has worked and he is still in classes but every week there is a conversation about if he should go back or not.

But after I arrived at the hospital at 5:30 and started holding him the storming stopped and I held him while he slept for several hours. Around 8:30 the nurses started taking vitals and checking him out which woke him up. He then started to storm again and we waited a little while to treat him but once we did it took the med about 45 minutes to calm him down. It's super hard to watch him because he gets so stiff and is grunting and pulling away/pushing back very hard. Normally when you have an upset baby you can calm and comfort him but in this case no matter what I do it doesn't calm him down.

The storming has been explained to me as the flight or flight response being triggered in the brain for no particular reason. So they have to use seizure meds or ADD meds to calm the brain signals that are fireing.

Tyson was then asleep for several more hours and I visited with all of his doctors and I also talked to a new groom of doctors that are in charge with therapy with brain tramatic cases. They are the group that evaluates the storming and decides how to aproach it with physical and ocupational therapy along with different drug regiments depending on the case. They pretty much asked a lot of questions and thought it was abnormal that he is storming now 3 1/2 weeks into the disease instead of at the begining.

Around 11:45 Tyson started to seize. It was pretty obviously different from the storming because he was doing some repetitive arm movements. We treated him with seizure medication and he calmed down within minutes. At that point he had recited his normal seizure medication that he gets daily, the storming med a second seizure rescue med and a loading dose of his regular seizure med because his levels were low when they drew his blood levels that morning. To say the least he was very sedated.

During the morning his PICC line also stopped working and through out the day they have been trying to get it to work but it just hasnt. I'm not sure yet what we will do with it but he has an IV in his foot for the time being.

Around 2:00 PM we went down for an MRI and he stayed asleep during the whole transport and the movement t to the MRI table. The anistesiologis still decided to sudate him a little bit with gas but he handled it fine and was back to us a few hours latter still sleeping.

At this point I was really tired and took a nap. During it Tyson kind of started moaning in his sleep so we gave him some ibuprofen and that seemed to calm him down. I also talked to the Infectious disease doctor about four hours after the MRI was taken. She said that the areas on inflammation are going down in his brain which is really good. She also said that the fontinels in the brain looked a little bit bigger but since the size of his head has not changed she attributed it to the inflammation around the fontinels going down. The minigys on the outside of the brain is still inflamed but that is to be expected with meningitis for several weeks to come. His Lumbar Pucture came back with great white count so they don't worry that anything is going wrong with the treatment of the meningitis.

So the big question is why is he storming and having seizures? The only answers I got from the doctors was that the brain damage that he has suffered controls basic body function like breating, heart rate and blood pressure. Because of this the body can overreact or over respond sometimes. The other reason I think it could be is because his regular seizure med was half of what it was supposed to be in his blood work and that because of that the abnormal brain activity was allowed to come back into he picture.

During the rest of the evening Tyson had two more episodes of storming. One he was able to stop on his own. The other one we treated because it went on for more then 10 minites. That second one also was turning into a seizure as we were treating him so it was good that we already had the meds going at that point.

Hopefully in the next few days we will figure something out so that he doesn't storm everytime he is awake (which has happened every time he wakes up in the last 24 hours.) It is a work in progress but we are hoping for the best. When we were in Idaho Falls at the hospital one of the doctors explained that with meningitis you often take a few steps forward and one or two back as the healing and brain changes take place. So I choose to look at this setback and something hard and unfortunate but it is part of the process of healing and getting better eventually.

I might need to get on my soap box again for a minute. I talked to the new attending infectious disease doctor yesterday about Tysons case and I was asking him about how often they see meningitis cases and how often there are cases that are this bad. He told me that at Primary's they probably get 10 or so a year but he has one of the worst cases that he has seen in his 27 year practice. The likely hood of this being one of the non covered bacteria in the immunization, getting it and having such bad brain trama is so rare. But he said that because of vacines the number of cases and the number of babies and kids that they loose from meningitis has drastically improved in the last 25 years.

I know that Tyson was recieving his vacines and that this wasn't one that was covered so I can't allow myself for any reason to feel guilty about him getting this but they do get cases of parents who don't immunize and their babies get some of the worst diseases that are vacines prevetable. I know that everyone has their own opinion about it but I just would have you think about it twice because sometimes what kids get (and can kill them) could have been prevented if you had given them shots. I'm glad that is not my situation but that guilt as a parent must be immense and unimaginable, knowing that you could have prevented it! 

Thank you again for all of the prayers and love!

(Please excuse my horible spelling of medical terms.)

(I have been doing the blog updates from my phone recently and it doesn't work well to upload pictures so I am sorry I haven't posted very many recently, hopefully I will do some more soon)

June 22, 2015

Most of the day went pretty good. Originally we had an MRI scheduled along with a Lumbar Puncture. They originally were supposed to happen around the same time so he could just be asleep for both procedures.

Around 11:30 AM we went down for the MRI and gradually his breathing kept getting worse and worse. As they were doing the final preparations before sudating him the PA decided it was too risky and called it off. We then scheduled him for an MRI for tomorrow to be done with an anesthesiologist.

Around 3 PM we were able to go down for the lumbar puncture in radiology. We gave him some morphine before we went down  abs that kept him calm for the procedure and we didn't have to sudate him any further. After we were finished we were able to restart his food. He hadn't eaten since early in the morning.

He rested and played for the early evening and we talked to his different doctors about going home. But I think this kid always knows when we are getting close to leaving and decides to act up. Around 8 or 9 PM his heart rate was up around 180 to 190. We gave him.some more morphine because we thought it was pain related. After about an hour that didn't help at all and he was just cranky and stiff. We then thought it could be a seizure and so we gave him some ativan around 10 PM and that helped him to relax and fall asleep but his heart rate was still around 170. At that point Cameron and I felt confident enough to go and rest but around 5:00 AM we got a call that he was "storming" since about 3 AM. Storming is kind of like a seizure but it is pretty much where the brain miss fires and sends a lot of signals. The doctor said that they don't know why it happens but it can happen with kids with nurologic damage. Going forward he will probably be given a maitenance drug daily which is similar with how we keep his seizures under control.

I showed up to the hospital around 5:30 and by that point he had been given a second dose of the med that is supposed to control the storming and as soon as I walked in is when it started working and he loosened up and stopped moaning and fussing. His heart rate has come down to about 160 and we also gave him some oxy to help with the storming as well. I will be talking to the nurologists about this in more detail latter today and we will probably ly be in the hospital.for at least 2 or 3 more days from now. This all I'd very scary, especially when the doctors say "I don't know why he is doing this" but I am glad it happened here instead of at home and I'm glad that they think that they know what it is and that we can treat it.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

June 21, 2015

Happy Fathers Day!

During the night Tyson did really well, he didn't have any more seizure like behaviors. In the morning they drew blood to run tests and they found that some of his inflammatory markers had gone up a little bit. Because of that the doctors would like to run an MRI on Monday to make sure that there are no puss pooling in his brain. They are also planning on doing a third lumbar puncture during that time while they have him asleep for the MRI. So right now the earliest we are looking to go home would be Tuesday or Wednesday.

We still need to do a car seat test where we put him in his car seat to make sure that his stats don't go down while sitting in it for the 3 hours it takes to get home. I also worked a lot with his binki and he was able to suck on it for several minutes which is very exciting and more then he has ever done before. I want to talk to the speech therapist tomorrow and see if we can add something else to his therapy. But that progress is awesome!

The nurses helped us put some cute little outfits on him today because he keeps rubbing his g tube with his hand and we want to avoid him tarring his skin. We keep putting a blanket over it but he has figured out how to move that out of the way. T was so fun to see clothes on him again though.

For Father's Day Tyson gave his dad a huge blow out and got it all over his dad's jeans and avoided his diaper almost completely. I had to run back to the Ronald McDonald house to get him more clothes.

For most of the day he just seemed pretty agitated. It's hard to know if it is because he is in pain or if he is just becoming more aware of the the situation that he is in and not liking it. He is also very stiff unless he is sleeping so we are working on physical therapy with him and we hope that improves over time. Cameron and I held him and he sat up against us and watched TV with us. He also only took a few 30 minute naps today so we are hoping that he gets back on his normal schedule of sleeping at night and taking very little naps like his normal Tyson self.

I talked to his doctors pretty extensively this morning about the seizure like activity I saw the night before. They agreed with what the night doctors decided and explained to me that because his vitals stayed the same during those episodes and because the behavior changed over time that he was probably not having seizure. They attributed it to the trama his brain has suffered and from the meningitis. I will be talking to the nurologists again tomorrow to discuss how I will be able to distinguish between the episodes and an actual seizures. I will also ask them if an EEG would be helpful as well cuz I think it might be interesting to see.

Earlier in the day Grandma Donna called the restaurant Ruth Chris steak house and told them about our situation and offered to have our meal on on the house. We defiantly enjoyed it and it was so nice to get out and enjoy a really nice dinner together. Cameron's Aunt Judy came into town today to help us out. It is so fun to see her and have her help us out.

This whole process has been very emotional and Cameron and I have both had different break down times and different ways of coping with it but I am so glad that we have grown stronger together and that we are helping to support each other through all of this.


June 20, 2015

Today was pretty normal. We talked to his doctors, Cameron and I helped with his mess and feeding tube. But around 5:30 pm he started doing some weird repetitive movements like twitching, eye shaking and raising his arms like he was marching. I showed the nurses and the doctor also came to look at it and to them it didn't look like seizures. The nurse kept a record of all of it to show the nurologists when they get back on Monday. The whole thing of different symptoms probably lasted for about 2 hours.

Because of the uncertainty I would like them to do another EEG before we leave and also do some other testing. I just feel uneasy about going home but I am trying to distinguish between us really needing to be here and the fear of us taking him home.

Tyson also turned 7 months old today!he is 20 lbs and 28 inches long. We just love him to peices!

Friday, June 19, 2015

Ronald McDonald House

So many different people have asked what they can do to help us during this time. And I finally have a simple thing that every single person can do! The Ronald McDonald house told us that if you go to http://smile.amazon.com you can select a charity to send 0.5% of every amount you spend on Amazon. It will automatically connect to your Amazon account that you already use when you sign in. There are many great charities that you could select but the charity that has helped us the most is the Ronald McDonald House located in Salt Lake City. It has been so wonderful to stay there and to be able to enjoy that loving and peaceful environment. I want to continue to help them be able to help others in the same way that they have helped us and I would appreciate everyone's help in doing the same thing! Thank you!


Thursday, June 18, 2015

June 18, 2015

Tyson's sergery is currently scheduled for 1:30 PM MT, extra prayers are aprechiated! I will give updates as I get them.

3:00 PM Update: We are in the consultation room now waiting to talk to the sergery staff before he goes in.

5:00 PM Update: he is still in sergery, I heard from the OR about 30 minutes ago and they said he is doing great and that the started the procedure around 4:00 PM. I don't know how long it is start to finish. I heard it is anywhere between 45 minute to 2 hours long.

5:40 PM Update: I just talked to the sergion a d he said that it went perfectly. He is in post op right now so I should be able to go see him in the next 15 minutes. His intubation is now out (they said it is standard with operations) and they will start continuous feeds in about 12 hours and then we will work up to bolus feeds in a few weeks. There is also a few stitches around the g tube that will be removed in the next few days. Thanks everyone for the prayers! It is so heart and gut renchung to wait while your baby is in sergery, but I'm so glad it went so well!

8:00 PM Update: Cameron showed up around 6:30 to suprise us! We didn't think he was coming until tomorrow. But we were finally able to go in and see Tyson around 6:45 PM. It took so long because he took a little bit longer to come out of the general anesthesia and then they were having a hard time with pain. When they called us back into the recovery area he was moaning a lot and looked uncomfortable. They gave him a second dose of fentyl and some rectal tylenol. He finally started to calm down and his blood pressure started being in normal ranges in the next hour. We just got back to his regular room and it is much more peaceful here. He is sleeping right now so hopefully we can manage his pain through the night and during the next few days.

Update: Tyson was given some morphine ever two hours along with tylenol and ibuprofen. For some reason be is not as effected by the pain killers as most people. He was able to sleep pretty well as long as his pain killer regiment was maintained.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

June 17, 2015

During the night Tyson had some seizure like activity for about a half an hour. He was moving his arm in a repetitive motion and was abnormal. Grandma Donna and the doctors decided not to treat it at that time. Around 7:45 this morning while I was here he started doing it again. He also had eye twitching then as well. His doctors were called as well as the neurologists and they decided to treat him with Ativan after about 25 minutes of doing the seizure like behavior. Latter today they will be putting an EEG on his head to monitor him and see what is going on. After giving him all of the his meds plus the Ativan he is sleeping very deeply and soundly. His pulse was a little bit high but has come down now. He tends to metabolize one of his seizure medications very quickly and his levels of it were very low this morning when they took labs. I have not talked to the neurologists today yet but hopefully we will come up with an action plan once we have talked.

I also spoke with his resident doctor this morning and she said that she spoke with speech therapy and they want to do a swallow test today around 11 AM to see how he does. Basically he will swallow some barium and they will watch with a live x ray to see where it goes. They expect him to fail the test which will pretty much guarantee him getting a g tube placement  along with the additional surgery of wrapping some of his stomach around his esophagus to prevent him from spitting up and aspirating. They just don't want the feeding tube to be the only reason he is held up in the hospital for an extended period of time.

That is pretty much all that I know right now and I will try to give more updates as the day progresses.

Update:

About a half an hour before we were going to go down for the swallow study the doctors changed it to be an upper GI test. They pretty much predicted that he would fail it anyways from what the speech therapist had said so they decided it was kind of pointless. When we went down to Imaging for the GI test we had to wait around a little bit because they were running behind but once we were in the room the techs were talking us through the procedure and we told them his history of reflux and also that he had to be intimated over two weeks ago for aspirating from a NG tube (feeding tube placed in his stomach through his nose). At that point we wanted them to have a crash cart in the room and we wanted the doctors to be well informed of his past history and what could potentially happen.

They obliged our wishes, they had his stats showing (which they normally don't do) and they also had the crash cart in the room which made me feel better. They said that if anything went wrong that they would call the code team and they would be their immediately. They had Tyson laying on an x ray bed and tied his legs together so that they wouldn't move too much. They then placed a tube down his other nostril and as they were doing it his oxygen levels went a little low for about ten seconds so they waited for them to come back up before proceeding. They predicted that he was uncomfortable and held his breath for a little bit. They also diluted the barium to half of the normal level that they use for kids and then they started by putting some of it in his NJ tube (which is the feeding tube that he already has that goes in his small intestines) after they saw that it was functioning properly they started putting some in his stomach. It was really cool and scary at the same time because they were able to see the fluid with the x ray and see how it worked its way in his stomach and through his intestines. They took lots of pictures and he did have some reflux but it didn't go up into his lungs. They only put about 2 oz of fluid in him before he started having some reflux.

The little guy looked like he was about to throw up the whole time so when they were done with their imaging they were able to suck almost all of the fluid out of his stomach so that it wasn't just sitting there. I decided that I need to have a wall of Tyson when all this is over showing all of his x rays (I can't even count how many he has had), his MRIs, the CT scans, ultrasounds and the GI study. He will have more pictures of the inside of him then the outside!

After that was all over we went back to our hospital room and my Aunt and Uncle were there and we were able to visit with them which was very nice. He started to calm down and was able to sleep for a bit as I rocked him to sleep. Tyson was also given an EEG at this time as well to monitor for seizure activity. I decided to take a hospital break and leave the hospital for a few hours. I pretty much went and drove around for about 30 minutes getting lost and finding something to eat while talking to Cameron on the phone. One of the hardest parts about this is being away from him while he is in school. But I love that I can keep him informed every step of the way as well.

When I got back I visited with his general doctor and they decided that they thought that getting a swallow test was pointless since he would fail it anyways so they wanted to move forward with the g-tube placement surgery. They also want to do what is called a Nissen procedure. It is pretty much where the wrap a part of the stomach around the esophagus and it helps with preventing reflux. After we decided that was the plan of action I met with the resident surgeon and the actual attending surgeon who will be performing the surgery. They basically told me all of the different risks and things that could happen during the surgery so that was very nerve racking but they believe that the benefits outweigh the risks and they think it is a good action plan right now for him to go forward with the surgery.

We originally thought that it would take a few days to get on the schedules but latter in the afternoon they came back and told me that he is on the schedule for tomorrow morning. It could potentially be pushed back if there is something more emergent but right now that is the plan. The surgery takes about 45 minutes to an hour and a half and then there is recovery time. The doctor also told me that the anesthesiologist that is in the room during the surgery is probably the best person in the hospital who does intibations. So that made me feel better in case that becomes a problem during the procedure. We don't think it will but it is one of those risks.

We would really appreciate a little extra prayer for Tyson while he goes into surgery tomorrow. I will try to give updates on timing and things like that but we are just praying that the doctors hands will be guided and that it will go as planned with no complications. Thank you so much for all the prayers that everyone has already given. They mean so much to us!

Around 5 the EEG came off and we talked to the neurologists. He said that despite the seizure like behavior this morning his EEG is actually looking a lot better then the ones taken a few days ago. Because of that they will be taking him off of one of his seizure meds that they have had a difficult time getting to therapeutic levels. They say that things could change in the next few days but they are happy with his progress right now. That is also a great blessing so we are just hoping that he continues to improve with his seizures.

This evening my mom was holding Tyson and he was just uncomfortable looking and kind of making a noise that told me he was frustrated and didn't like what was going on. I then picked him up from her and snuggled him a little bit and he seemed to just melt into my arms and enjoyed me holding him a lot more then he enjoyed when my mom did it. I love my mom and all the help she has given but I secretly like that he enjoys when I hold him the best.

I was also able to visit with one of my cousins this evening and talk to her about her experience with being in a coma and having significant brain trauma and brain damage. When she was a teenager she was involved in an accident that put her in a coma for two weeks and caused severe brain damage on one side of her brain. The doctors didn't expect her to live and they said that if she lived she would not be anywhere close to the person she was before. When she woke up she was in therapy for several weeks but within a short time she was able to regain all of her brain function and ability to move her body. She told us that while she was in the hospital and as she was waking up and becoming aware of what was going on she felt like she was just wrapped in the Savior's arms and in his love. This was very comforting to hear because we do worry about what Ty's experiences are while he is in his current state. We hope and pray that he feels love and connected but hearing her experience really helped us know that Christ is really looking out for him and is close to him during this difficult time as he heals. It was also very promising that despite her brain damage she was able to learn and function completely normally. It give us hope that Tyson could potentially become a lot better then his doctors predict.

Thank you for all the sweet messages and the love that we feel from everyone every day! Thank you for the prayers that will be given on Tyson's behalf during his procedure and continuing on afterwards.

June 16, 2015

Today they told us that the ultrasound that we took yesterday hasn't changed at all from the first one they took on Sunday. So that is good, that means that the ventricles in his brain are not swelling any more then they were on Sunday. They will continue to monitor him and make sure that he doesn't start swelling or swell more then he already has. But this will be monitored for months to come as well.

We also had the speech therapist come and evaluate him for the first time. She worked a lot with putting a little bit of formula on a binki and putting it in his mouth to see if he will swallow and or choke. From what she saw he did well and has the potential to improve. He was sucking on the binki lightly and he would swallow occasionally. She also said that having him sit up in a chair is very helpful and can assist him with his ability to handle his secretions and continue to learn to swallow better.

His physical therapist also made a visit and she talked to us about a few stretches that can be done to help his muscle tone. His ankles are pretty stiff and she recommended that we buy some high top shoes for him to assist in keeping his feet in the proper position. We will be doing his " baby yoga" with him a few times through out the day and we will continue to have in home therapy when we go home as well as outpatient therapy and occasional visits to Primary Children's in the months and year to come.

We spoke with the resident doctor on his team and she started mentioning the going home process and that they were starting to think about that as a team. They still need to talk to the neurosurgeons to decide how they want to monitor him going forward. The speech team will need to do a swallow study and see if he is eligible for a g tube placement or if they will keep his current feeding tube which is in his nose for the months ahead to see if he can progress enough to eat on his own in that amount of time. His seizures will also need to be under control before we are discharged.

Thinking of going home is very overwhelming. I will have in home health assistance but I will be responsible for managing his feeding, meds (there is about 10 or so that he takes through out the day), therapy and making all of the appointments and signing up for all the programs that he will need to be apart of. And I used to think that taking care of a regular baby was a lot of work! I know that I won't be alone and that there are a lot of people to help but it is just overwhelming to think about right now. We are excited about the prospect of going home though. I wouldn't be surprised if we are in the hospital for an additional 5 to 7 days from now though.

Grandma Kim and I decided to be naughty and do arts and crafts for Father's day with Tyson. We were lucky and the nurses didn't come in while we were doing it. I am sure Tyson thought we were being ridiculous but we thought it was fun. I was also able to hang out with my little brother Brian yesterday for a few hours. Its kind of fun to realize your little brother is actually easy and enjoyable to hang out with. He also played the piano for me in the lobby of the hospital so that was fun to hear as well.

The afternoon and evening was pretty uneventful. We played with him while he was awake and then let him relax while he was sleeping. It has been so fun and nice to be able to hold him whenever we want. It was really hard to not be able to hold him for about two weeks.

I have learned a few things while being in the hospital about what to say to families going through hard times. We have had different members of the cleaning staff come in every day to clean our hospital rooms. And almost every time I hear them say to me "I hope he gets feeling better soon." That phrase never struck me before being in this situation but now I realize that it is probably something that should not be said by hospital staff to families. Especially when they don't know the situation or what is wrong with the child. Because some times that child will not get better or like in our case it will be a very long road until he is "better" or at a functioning level. I know that it is said with the best of intentions but it is hard to hear that as a parent of a very sick baby when you don't know if they will get better or not.

The other saying that is really interesting is "How are you doing?" I know that everyone who asks has the best of intentions but how do you respond when your life feels like it is falling apart and the child that you had will never be the same again? I generally respond by saying "I am doing good all things considered" just so I don't have to think about it and experience all of those emotions again. I don't want to discourage people from asking me or my family that question but there is more behind the surface of my response. I really do appreciate and love that people care about us and check in on us daily and I know that there is not a better way to ask that question but it is just something to think about.

Alright I will get off of my soap box now. I really do appreciate the different notes of encouragement that different people send me every day. It really touches my heart that people I know, barely know and never met are touched by our story and experiences. I know that we are being carried through this trial in our lives right now and I hope that heaven will continue to help us as we learn what is best for our little Tycoon as his life progresses.


This is Brian playing in the hospital 


Hanging out with my Brother 


Doing arts and crafts with Grandma Kim 


He is annoyed with us lol. 





Monday, June 15, 2015

June 15, 2015

Today has been a good day. Tyson still needs to be suctioned a few times through out the day but for the most part he is swallowing his secretions and coughing once in a while. He is very much like a 20 lb newborn right now. He wakes up a few times through out the day for short periods. He is limp with very little muscle control. He doesn't really focus his eyes and can more his arms and legs like a newborn. The speech therapist was supposed to come today but they were overbooked and they didn't end up coming. So hopefully they will come tomorrow and be able to evaluate him tell us that we need more testing. The therapists will evaluate if he can swallow on his own for eating and how is esophagus is working.

Right now I am leaning towards getting the g tube placed because I think he would be too tired at this point to eat enough all day every day. And I would rather be an expert at swallowing and breathing before we try eating. But we will see what the doctors say. If they do the surgery they will also do an additional procedure where they wrap a bit of his stomach around the opening of the esophagus to the stomach. And it will help with reflex so that he doesn't aspirate. But he would be able to eat eventually even with that procedure.

We had the occupational and rehab therapists come to visit us today as well. They worked with Tyson and also told us that there is a great rehab therapy program in Rexburg that we could potentially be using in the future that they highly recommended. There is also an option to have a musical therapist come in to work with Tyson so we are thinking of doing that as well.

We also went on an adventure to get an ultrasound of his brain. Since we are no longer in the PICU we had to go to the imaging center instead of the ultrasound tech coming to us. So far we haven't heard any results so to us that is good because if there was something urgent then we would have heard from the neurosurgeon by now. But they will let us know more tomorrow hopefully.

We have had so many people praying for us, it is amazing to hear the stories on a daily basis! Today Grandma Donna told me a cute story about Cam's cousin's daughter who goes to Catholic school. She is in Kindergarten and today when she went to class she told them about Tyson so they prayed for him in the classroom and then they prayed for him again with the whole school during mass. It warms my heart especially when I hear stories of little children praying for my sweet boy! I know that their faith is so strong and that they are connected to God on a deep level because of that undeniable faith and belief that they hold in their hearts.

But that has been our day pretty much. Cameron is going back to Rexburg tomorrow to do this weeks worth of classes. We are happy with our babies progress and we are hopeful for his future.


Father and Son 


On our way to get the Ultrasound


He loved going on an adventure




Sunday, June 14, 2015

June 14, 2015

We are out of the PICU!!! Last night Tyson did great! He had to be suctioned every few hours but for the most part he was taking care of breathing and protecting his air way. Around 4 or 5 AM the nurses took off his extra oxygen support and he is now completely breathing on his own and he is getting plenty of oxygen. During the morning rounds with the PICU doctors they decided that he could be transferred out of the PICU. We were sad to leave our great nurse today. He is a fire chief, Paramedic and RN. His story was very interesting but he was very delicate with Tyson and answers our endless questions for him. He was very optimistic about Tyson and in his ability to improve and adapt even with his brain damage. Only time and Tyson will tell.

Now we are in the Infant unit of the hospital and it is a lot more relaxed here and we are not having doctors and nurses and other staff constantly in and out of our room. Originally we had a Care Conference planned for tomorrow but now that is on hold till further notice. The doctors are very excited and surprised that his ventilator is out and has stayed out. But that meeting will be on hold until they know more or have a new plan of procedures that need to happen.

His earlier nurse told us that it is highly possible that Tyson will be a snorer for the next several weeks to months if not longer. They think that when the ventilator was in his throat and air way it caused a lot of irritation so his body needs to heal there as well. Luckly he is able to handle it without any extra support. Tyson will have awake and sleep periods of time but the two drugs he is on for his seizures are making him very sleepy. We are very excited about his progress and we are enjoying our new room in the hospital.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

June 13, 2015

Have you ever appreciated the fact that your little babies can breath in and out, receive the amount of oxygen that they need, get rid of the CO2 in their body to keep their PH in balance, cough, swallow, suck and eat all at the same time? I have a whole new respect for that process and I will never take it for granted again. This evening the doctor pulled out Tyson's ventilator after being on the trial for over a day an a half. During the first hour Tyson couldn't swallow at all, the nurse was suctioning him out every few minutes and he was struggling to breath. Luckly the doctor decided to give him some time to see how he would handle it and they also gave him a gas version of epinephrine to breath to help the suspected swelling in his throat from the ventilator.  It has now been about 5 hours since he was off of the ventilator and is now swallowing and coughing on his own once in a while but more when the nurse suctions him. We are very hopeful that he will be able to figure it out so that he can protect his air way and not have to be reintibated. They are also giving him a very small amount of oxygen but he is doing great!

About an hour after they took the ventilator out I was able to hold him. As soon as he was in my arms he calmed down and was able to sleep and breath pretty comfortably. While I was holding him is when he started swallowing on his own and sucking on his binki. It is so special to be able to hold him and know that each breath is such a miracle!

The doctors say that they will watch him very closely for the next 24 to 48 hours to see how he is breathing and protecting his air way. If he struggles with it and it is not going well they might need reintibate him. They also tested his blood gas levels a few hours after being off of the ventilator and he was maintaining great levels all by himself!

Grandma Kim, Cameron and myself have all held him so far and he by far is more peaceful and less upset when Cam or I hold him. I know he loves his grandma's but I am secretly happy he likes us the best.

One reason why this whole breathing without a ventilator is so impressive is because the part of the brain that controls breathing, heart rate and temperature monitoring has been very damaged by the meningitis. It is such a miracle that he can more, breath, monitor his own heart rate and temperature. We are still working and hoping that he will be able to fully protect his air way but that will be something that is discovered in the next hours and days to come.

Earlier in the day we found out that he is managing his seizures better so the EEG was able to come off which is great. And we also found out the results of his MRI that was taken last night from the Neurosurgeon. He said that his ventricles are a little bit bigger then the previous MRI that was taken. Right now that doesn't qualify him for brain surgery but they will defiantly be watching him.  The surgeon mentioned that a great way to monitor their size would be through ultrasound. So Tyson had an ultrasound this afternoon and then will probably continue having them every day or every other day. So we hope he doesn't need surgery but we are happy that they are monitoring him so closely and carefully in case he does need it.

It has been a great day and we are so appreciative for the miracles that we see happening in our little babies life! Thank you for all of your support, kind words and prayers! I can't thank everyone enough!


This is a video of Tyson breathing after about an hour or two off of the ventilator while I was holding him. Those breaths and snoring are so precious! I haven't heard him breath this peacefully in over two weeks! 


Last picture of Ty before the vent was taken out. 


A few minutes after the vent was taken out and the doctor was holing him up. He was breathing on his own right here with no oxygen support. 


The RT "gassing" him to help the potential swelling in his throat go down.


Grandma Kim holding Tyson


Man time!! 


Mommy and Tyson! I love my Baby Boy!! 


Friday, June 12, 2015

June 12, 2015

During the night Tyson did really well. He had a little bit of a temperature periodically but they were able to control with Tylenol. This morning the doctors decided that they wanted to start his Breathing Trial which is basically where they take away all of the extra help with the ventilator for a period of time and they see how he does on his own with very minimal support for breathing through a straw. They started it around 9:15 AM and it has been going for two hours so far and he is doing perfectly. They discussed taking out his ventilator some time today or tomorrow depending on how he does. The ventilator is also set up on a CPAP mode so if he stops breathing for what ever reason it will kick on automatically after 15 or 20 seconds. We are very excited and hopeful that he will be able to breath on his own again soon. 

If for some reason they take out the ventilator and tube and he needs it again they will re intibate him but the Respiratory Therapist, his doctors and nurses are all very excited with what he is doing right now. The doctors are just checking with neurology to double check that they don't need to do extra imaging (MRI or CT) in the next 24 hours and that the medications he is currently getting for his seizures are not going to compromise his ability to breath on his won. 

I have also talked to the neurologist today and they basically said that he has a lot of damage and they are trying to get the seizures under control at this point. But they don't know the long term effects of the seizures or the disease at this point. I am kind of sick of hearing that answer, but it helps me stay hopeful that he might progress more then they think possible at this point. 

Some time latter today the fellow or attending doctor will sit down with Cameron and I and review the MRI again and talk to us about his case. So that will be good since this is the first day that Cameron will be here and getting to know this new hospital and Tyson's team of doctors and nurses. 

The doctors are also trying to get up one of his medication levels up because it is really low in his blood. So that is also in the works for today. Hopefully that will help with his seizure activity and then we can take of the EEG. 

Today we also started to play meditation music and close the blind in the room which has helped a lot with Tyson being calm and us being calm in his room. The environment here is very fast and crazy all the time. And it can make anyone very on edge all the time. But since we turned on the music Tyson's heart rate has been very stable and so has his breathing which is so great. It has also helped my nerves as well. 

My mom and I chatted with the Social Worker about how it works to get Tyson qualified as having a disability. Basically there is a lot of red tape and you have to work with the Federal Government along with the State Government and you have to jump through all of their hoops. If anyone knows anyone who has had a child with disabilities and has filled out an SSI application and has worked with the government it would be great if you could put them in touch with them that would help me so much. They will probably know the best things to do and how to get everything going even better then the people here at the hospital. 

That is basically what is going on today I will hopefully update everyone again latter today or tomorrow. Thank you for all of the love and support!

Update: During the afternoon shift we talked to two Nurosurgeons who are consulting on the case as well. They were slightly concerned about the fluid build up in Tyson's head so they wanted to get a new MRI to double check what was going on and to make sure he doesn't need a drain in his head for the fluid. By 6:30 PM his EEG was off and we were off to MRI. It took about an hour and a half until Tyson came back to his room. We don't know the results of the MRI yet but we are hoping that because it is taking till the next morning to get the results that there is nothing too scary going on.

Through the MRI and during the night Tyson breathed on his own and didn't need any extra support. Once the MRI is checked and one of his seizure medications is up (which will hopefully happen today) his EEG and his Ventilator will be able to come off and out!!

Visitors: Elaine, Ryan and Gina


A very cute poster that was made by our home ward in Rexburg 


Tyson right after his MRI and after his nurse washed and brushed his hair 


His lion is watching out for him



Pictures from the Candles lit for Tyson at Westminister Abby and Notre Dame. 


June 11, 2015

Tyson is still wearing the EEG monitor and he has shown signs of two different seizure like activity in the past 36 hours that were about 15 to 25 minutes long. The neurologist isn't calling it a seizure exactly but it is like that in a way. I am not quite sure what that means or what the difference is but it is interesting. He still isn't having any physical signs of seizures so we understand that to be a good thing. He is having a lot of different physical signs of neurological damage, like stiffness, eye twitching, and jerking motions.

But on the bright side Tyson is starting to wake up more often and for longer periods of time. He moved both of his legs on his own for the first time yesterday which was great! He is also lifting his arms more often and responding to pain with his facial expressions. We also redecorated his room today with pictures of him and us as a family and everyone who comes in comments on how cute he is. I don't know if that is what they say to everyone but it is nice to hear. 

Around noon yesterday the PICC team came in and put it in his arm. They originally assessed him in the morning with an ultrasound and decided that he had great veins for it and that they didn't need to go to radiology to put it in, they could do it at the bed side. When they came back to do the actual procedure they had us step out but they explained to us how it all would work. They would first insert it like putting an IV in. Then they would put a little bit of lidocaine around that point and put in a bigger needle to widen the area so that the line could go in easier. The linen is now in his vain and travels up his arm almost to his heart. They said that this is a way better long term option for him because putting Antibiotics in smaller veins tends to wear them out in the long run. But they said that the procedure went perfectly. 

We also talked to the Infectious Disease doctors yesterday and he told us that after looking at Tyson's MRI it is one of the worst cases of brain damage and infection from bacterial meningitis that he has ever seen. He also said that based on his review Tyson will be on antibiotics for at least 4 to 6 weeks via IV. That could all be in the hospital or some at home depending on how he is progressing. 

The doctors also talked about starting some spontaneous breathing trials with his ventilator to see how he does breathing almost completely on his own. Pretty much what happens is that the turn almost all of the settings down to 0 or almost 0 and see how he does with minimal support. He is basically breathing through a straw so there is some added support to help compensate for that but he will be pretty much doing it on his own and they will monitor how well he handles it. If for some reason he doesn't breath for 15 or 20 seconds the ventilator will automatically start breathing for him in a CPAP  mode until they can figure out the problem or reset the settings to his normal ventilator settings. 

Yesterday they also did an x ray in the morning to look at his lungs and they were about the same as they were before. They were seeing and hearing a little bit of collars in part of his lungs but they said that is normal with vented babies. When they put the PICC line in they also took another x ray to double check that it was in the right place before they started using it. The x rays are taken in his room at the bed side. 

The doctors also said that we will do a conference meeting on Monday with the neurologist, ICU doctors, and Infectious Disease doctors to discuss Tyson's case and plan for the future and see what they expect him to be like in the future. So hopefully Cameron and I will be in there with one or both of our moms. 

I also received two very interesting phone calls yesterday. The first was from the Idaho Department of Health and they just wanted to review Tyson's case and make sure that he didn't get his meningitis from someone and didn't pass it on to anyone else. They also wanted to check that he had received his vaccines. It was frustrating for me because it was a very accusatory conversation and he made me feel bad that Tyson received meningitis even though the vaccine isn't complete until he is a year old. I know that Tyson getting this is totally random, it wasn't caught from someone else. It was a strep bacteria that was floating around and happened to get into his spinal fluid and get infected. But its hard to have conversations with people who don't completely understand his case because his is not a normal meningitis case and he has had a lot more brain trama then almost anyone who gets meningitis. 

The second call was from a survey company and when they called they asked if Tyson was there and if they could talk to him. I was kind of taken back by that question but I said that he was a baby but I was his mom so they could talk to me. She then asked how our transport went the day before and was wondering if we had a doctor visit or where we took the transport. I only wish it was a transport for a doctors visit! I told her that we were transported from the hospital to the air port for a life flight to Salt Lake. She immediately apologized for bothering me and told me to have a nice day. I am glad she was considerate but she didn't have paperwork that said that he was 6 months old and that he was life flighted?!

The last eventful thing that happened yesterday was during the time that the nurses were changing shifts. It happens in a time period of an hour and a half in the morning and evening and they only allow parents to be in the room during that time. Immediately when I saw his new nurse I had a sinking feeling in my gut and I just didn't feel right about her taking care of Tyson. I sat and watched her for about 5 minutes and she looked tired, she was sneezing, coughing, had a ruff voice, and sniffling. I then went and asked her if she was sick and she told me that technically they don't allow them to come to work sick (which makes sense when you are a pediatric ICU nurse!!) but sometimes they have to come anyway. At that point my red flags and sirens were flying in my head. I then went right over and talked to the charge nurse. He told me that it would be difficult to switch nurses but he would try to get that to happen. Then my mom and I walked back in his room and I was about to loose it and explode at someone just from the stress and emotions of the day and this new situation. So I ended up leaving and going and sitting with Grandma Donna and then my friend Colby came to visit and so I visited with her as well. When I got back to the room about 45 minutes latter the nurses were switching and everything was going well. My mom told me that the new nurse was giving her some attitude and the charge nurse was pushing back on not wanting to switch but my mom wasn't having it so we got a new nurse and she was very caring and attentive to Tyson all night long. 

That was our long emotional day but we are excited that he is becoming more aware and alert. For the past few days since we arrived here in Salt lake I have been thinking about the life flight and being up in the clouds in the air plane. One of my favorite places in the whole world is up in the sky in the middle and slightly on top of the puffy clouds. I just feel like I am closer to heaven and it reminds me that even though I am a very small part in this world I am important to my Heavenly Father. During our flight this past week I was able to feel the Holy Spirit and know that my Heavenly Father is watching out for my little family and precious son. He loves Tyson more then I do and I know that everything that is happening is based on his will and love for us. 

I was also reading last night on LDS.org tips for helping mothers with children who have disabilities. There was one passage that gave me such peace and comfort knowing that being my child's advocate is what is best for him. Many people who know me know that I am usually a very kind timid person who doesn't like to rock the boat or offend people. So stepping up and telling other people how it is and what I want for my son in regards to his care has been difficult on some level for me. This whole experience is definitely changing me in some ways to be strong and not worried about others feelings when it comes to my babies life. This is the quote I loved from the LDS.org website: 

"Like many others, you may feel unprepared for the challenges of nurturing a child with a disability. We are reminded in "The Family: A Proclamation to the World" that mothers have a special responsibility to nurture their children. Because of this the Lord has blessed mothers with the insight and understanding necessary to make decisions regarding the welfare of their children." 

This whole process is not easy, I break down, I get angry, I feel bad for myself and I don't want this to be my trial. But I know that we are growing through it and we are growing stronger because of it.

Visitors: Alyssa and Frank, Matt, Lance, Great Grandpa Phil, Colby and Family